Hello everyone! I was told by a special someone that I need to post on my blog. I realize I haven't posted in eight months. To anyone that still checks back here on a daily basis hoping that I posted some new exciting post about my life, today is your lucky day! I'm just going to do a bit of explaining about my blog and why I probably won't be writing much for a while.
I started this blog back at the end of seventh grade. At first I was unsure about it yet excited. It quickly became one of my fun weekly activities to write here. I loved looking at my sitemeter to see how many people would read my blog and I absolutely loved getting feedback. I had awful junior high years. Around the time that I started this blog was when the economy went bad. My dad was self-employed but was forced to quit because of some untimely changes. He had to start looking for a job yet no one was hiring. The entire summer of 2008 my family had absolutely no money. We sold everything that we could live without and barely had enough food. We lived off of frozen pizza and taco soup from our food storage that entire summer. My parent's stress rubbed off onto me and I quickly became very depressed and anxious. I had problems making friends at school and would come home every day upset and sleep it off. So writing on here and reading everyone's posts became my only exciting thing, I posted at least once a week and I made sure I had the coolest layout and music. You'll notice that 2008 was when I had the most posts even though I didn't even start the blog until half way through the year. I felt like I could write anything and the people reading felt like my friends that I could tell anything to and joke with since I didn't do much of that at school.
Ninth grade was a much better year and I felt infinitely happier than the previous year. Honestly whenever I think of eighth grade I just think of darkness. I'm not trying to be cheesy or weird, that's just the truth. Seventh grade I think of awkwardness, eighth is dark, ninth is fun, tenth is drama, and eleventh was just bad.
So the reasons I don't really write anymore are because 1) I feel like my life is so boring and you guys wouldn't care 2) I'm not as funny as I used to be. When I re-read my junior high posts I start cracking up. I was so funny and now I've mellowed out. 3) No one writes on their blogs anymore. It just kind of died out so most of the people who read my blog probably won't even see this post. I enjoy having an audience. My journal is just for me, but the blog is to entertain people and to give them a glimpse into my life. 4) I'm more content with life than I used to be. I don't need this as an escape. Right now, I'm happy and have accepted who I am and who I hope to become.
I don't know how much or if I'll post again this year. I could post again next week or next year for all I know. I plan to blog again once I get into college. I want to get into BYU Provo and major in Animation and minor in piano performance. I really enjoyed reading my cousin Stephanie's blog and seeing all of the artwork that she did for her classes so I thought it would be cool if I posted the short animation demos and artwork that I'll do if I do get into college. Also, I won't be home so my parents and sisters could read my blog to check up on me if they'd rather not contact me or something. College will probably be much more exciting than my life right now and I'm beyond excited. I really don't want to go to another year of high school I just want to go to college so bad.
I'm just going to give you a synopsis of the previous school year and my life right now so you can feel like you know more about me and so you can understand why I'm not sure if I'll get into college.
Sooooooo junior year. Eeek. The first six weeks were great. Then I got a job. Worst decision of my life. I got a job at Wendy's. The first two weeks they had me working 30 hours a week. The first day of work, I came home really tired and went to bed. The entire night I kept on having restless dreams where I'm making shakes, getting fries, collecting money, or taking orders. You know those awful dreams where it's super restless and when you wake up you feel like you never went to sleep? Yeah that's what happened. For two weeks straight. And hence began the missing school. After the first day of school, I arrived at school an hour late. For the rest of the school year, it was a miracle if I could get to school on time. It was awful and I got into a really bad habit of waking up late and thinking that it was ok. I had seminary first period the entire year. First term was the only term that I got mostly full credit. I have over 100 seminary lessons to make up. God help me. Literally. I hated myself for not being able to get to school on time and missing class. I could tell my dad was really disappointed with me all the time. I felt like such a loser and failure. I began to wonder how I can possibly get into BYU, they wouldn't want a lazy bum like me. After Christmas, I got this brilliant idea to go to the Academy of Art University in San Francisco. It's $17,000 a year, has a great animation program, and everyone who applies gets in. Perfect, right? I was fully convinced I was going there for three months. In January, I had to have a meeting with my AP Calculus teacher and my dad because I was barely going to class (it was first period...) and I was way behind and failing. I couldn't quite catch up and failed that term. BYU would love that. In March, I performed in my school's musical, "Guys and Dolls." I can't say it was that much fun. Well the rehearsals were fun, but the performances not so much. My school's amazing choir teacher retired the previous year, so we had this guy fresh out of college who had never directed a musical on his own and our new choir teacher trying to pull it together. It was good, but it could've been much better. Also, I was in 4 scenes. I was in the beginning scene on and off like four times. Then I came on two scenes later for a minute pretending to be drunk with a cute sailor. Did I mention I was a hooker? And then I got to sit in the dressing room for almost an hour until I was on again. And then I got to be in the Havana scene at the end of Act I where I'm at a bar in Cuba and a fight breaks out and I do some dancing and hair pulling. That lasted about five minutes. That was my big scene. Then I didn't come out again until the very last scene where I lock arms with some guy and sing Guys and Dolls. I really don't mind being part of the chorus, I don't need a main part to feel important. But only four scenes? It was ridiculous. I'm glad I was in it, but this year I hope that they do a musical with more scenes for chorus members. In March, I also took the ACT. I spent hours studying and that was probably one of the only things that I took seriously that year. I got a 29. Boo-ya. I also went on the science trip the last week of March the week before spring break. I got to go to Seaworld, San Diego Wild Animal Park, Disneyland, California Adventures, Universal Studios, Santa Barbara, and Six Flags. I won't go into what happened there, but let's just say it wasn't quite what I thought it was going to be which was a real downer since I spent so much money. I did enjoy myself most of the days though. I especially loved Universal Studios. Apparently other people that went didn't like it as much but I was fascinated. Probably because I want to be in the movie business with animation and special effects and I got to see lots of behind the scenes stuff. The end of the school year came. I took and failed my AP Calculus test. I nearly failed 4th term AP Calculus, and I had done tons of makeup for third term yet fell less than 2% short of passing. I sent a pleading email and he did eventually allow me to pass.
So at the end of a crappy school year I thought about how I will never have enough money to get into the Academy of Art University so BYU is my only hope. I took the ACT again and got a 31 (out of 36 if you don't know). So that combined with my 3.27 GPA, is that enough to get me in? I'm making up all of my seminary, I'm doing 200 hours of service by crocheting blankets for a nursing home, and I'm taking 3 AP classes and an internship next year. I also know Chinese and have my Young Women Personal Progress Award. So do you think they'll accept me? That's the big question. I'm scared to death that I won't make it. I'm doing everything possible to increase my chances. I can't blame them if I don't get in though, it's my fault for being lazy and getting bad grades. I'll let you guys know if I get in. If not, I probably won't post on here for a long time because I don't even want to go to college if I don't get in. Animation is the only thing I want to do and I'm not gonna waste money getting a degree in something I don't want to do.
Anyway, I hope that holds you all until next time. Thanks for reading my blog, it means a lot to me. Loves to all. :)
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